Poetry - expression from the heart. Although many are LGBT themed, the poetry and musings found here are not contained to any one lifestyle, as feelings have no prejudice. As long as you have an open mind and a willing heart you certainly do belong.
Dark Consumption
Things go well. Days proceed as they should - tasks get accomplished, and work gets completed. Every now and again, though, the darkness creeps up inside me and wreaks havoc with my happiness. Doubts set in and darkness settles upon my soul. The light fizzles and the warmth in my heart feels like a chilly rock of ice. Emotions leave me and loneliness fills me.
She doesn’t understand when this happens. She fears it’s because of her, but in all reality it’s all about me...only about me. I create it within myself somehow, knowing one day it will consume me. I wonder if I even have the ability to simply love. I think I have it mastered, then this lonely darkness makes me question it and hold people at bay.
One day she will catch on that I cannot allow her closer - not because I’m unwilling, but because I do not have the capabilities to do so. Maybe I’m afraid of future pain, both causing it and receiving it. Maybe I’m simply not cut out for a lifetime partnership. I do believe, however, that there will come a day she will cut the cord and sever the tie. When that time comes, the only blame I can lay will be my own...as I know this darkness exists and yet I continue to pretend it doesn’t. It will catch up to me...one day.
December 2009 - Heather Cacciatori
Miss Me, Baby
Miss me baby, you know I'm gone,
Remember me when you hear our song.
When you see the stars ahigh,
Don't just walk away and sigh.
See my face with eyes so bright,
Smiling up to you in the night.
Remember all the feelings we shared,
And all the times you said you cared.
Remember the touch of my lips so soft,
That night we spent up in the loft.
Hear my voice crying out to you in the night,
When we made love 'till the morning light.
Remember my touch,
Remember my feel.
Miss me baby, you know I'm gone,
Remember me when you hear our song.
Copyright © 1997 - Heather Cacciatori
Forgiveness
Forgiveness...
A word, a line,
Something to say in order to move on.
Do I mean it? Do you?
Can we truly just walk on and act as if all is ok?
I forgive but cannot forget, so do I truly forgive at all?
You act like nothing ever happened.
I watch you with her, with them, holding their little hands
Ensuring them they are safe to grow up in the cruel world.
Have you changed enough to keep them safe?
They look up to you with hopeful eyes and trustful hearts.
A harsh past not too far behind.
You took them in with open arms and promised that things would change.
Have you grown enough to deliver?
How many chances do you get to get it right?
How long will it take before they, too, are forgotten and pushed aside?
No, not this time… This is different, born of guilt and need.
I’m old enough now to keep my head high and pretend things are fine.
We get together and fake a life that never happened…
A set of years that never existed.
I do not hold it against you.
How can I when the rug has been walked over time after time?
I can’t even state it hurts any longer,
As I’ve been numb for so long.
My mind holds the file tight, though,
Keeping my body and heart prepared.
With this said,
I guess I can forgive
Even though I can’t forget.
Copyright © December 2009 - Heather Cacciatori
My Heart is a Prisoner (of my Pride)
There are times when I need someone near
To hug me and tell me the words I need to hear.
Many times all I wanna do is hide;
To cry until I have nothing left inside.
Sometimes I just wanna run away and find
Someone who'll wash all the pain aside.
But the world is tough on those who are weak,
And I'm not one who is easily beat.
So as I walk down the street alone,
I act like one who is hard to hold.
With shoulders up and head held high,
It's all I can do not to break down and cry.
For some reason, I can't let anybody see
That I can be hurt so easily.
Copyright © 1995 - Heather Cacciatori
Our Chance
Funny how life takes its turns
And how more and more hearts get burned.
Numbers say that love don't last
Half as long as in the past.
But here we are together and then
This time I think our hearts will win.
If we let our hearts take control
Our love will shelter our weary soul.
Lovers leave and old flames die,
Passion fizzles as time goes by.
Books say that and experts agree,
We can't let that happen between you and me.
We can fight the dangers to keep our chance
Of lasting love and true romance.
If we're hand in hand and heart to heart
Nothing will be able to tear us apart.
Lonely people think it just leads to heartache
But love's never caused any heart to break.
Only goodbyes can cause a heart to bleed,
Not the love that our hearts need.
Together we can pass any test
That tries to put our love to rest.
Forever together we will be
If we sing along to life's melody.
Honey, you have all my heart-
Every piece and every part.
Even though these feelings to me are new
I know in my soul that I'll always love you.
Copyright © 1997 - Heather Cacciatori
Our Kiss
Your eyes whisper of your love for me
So tender, your loving touch
You set my soul on fire
Till I'm burning with desire
Moist lips melt into mine
Our passions' flames unite
Flames burn bright
Our desires do soar
Love and Passion are the same
Lost in fantasies of you and me
We draw fire from every kiss
Two lovers, as it should be
Higher and higher we climb
Till the fire rages out of control
Bodies joined in loves' embrace
Lost in love's flaming ecstast
Soft caresses, our kiss so deep
We touch, we taste, we feel
Reaching new heights never known
Feeling love's sweet release
Our bodies and hearts warmed
Our needs, our pleasures sated
Wrapped in each others arms
As two lovers should be
Copyright © May 2002 - Heather Cacciatori
Seeking You
Dreaming...in a trance
Broken only by the sound of your voice,
The feel of your fingertips.
A soft touch, a sweet carress...
My mind clears and searches for you.
My lungs take in air and the
Musky scent of your skin fills them.
My eyes fill with your beauty and
My fingers urge me to touch your cheek.
Heavenly...divine...my heart sings our song.
Copyright © August 2001 - Heather Cacciatori
Past Remains
A love so cherished you hold it tight,...too tight...
with both hands pressed against your heart
You find that the love has crumbled in your palms
so you let go to walk a different path...
to join a new venture,
crushing the remains under your boots as you walk by.
Time passes and when you look back,
you find that they are no longer remains of the past
but a wrinkled hope that shouldn't have been released so soon.
Memories haunt you anew,
yet you don't know if to believe they are as happy as you dream.
Should you revisit the old trail?
Would you be able to pull the wrinkles from the past or
is it best to crumble the past as before?
Copyright © May 2001 - Heather Cacciatori
Your Love
I've seen the light of life
there in your eyes
and heard the breath of love
there in your sighs,
and with the very soul of me
I want my heart to ever be
with you, for that's where all
life's beauty lies.
Copyright © 1997 - Heather Cacciatori
You Need to Fight For Us
Rushed...
So many things still left to do...
So many "I love you's" still left to say
My heart beats for you
My body heats for you
My soul pounds for you
My love lives for you
But I'm scared it's not enough
I'm afraid that my world will stop
I'm terrified my life will come crashing down around me
You gave me the key to your heart
And I fear you'll want it back
So you can pass it along to someone new
I will fight for you
...for us
But I can only fight so hard
And can only offer so much
I am only me
And I pray that that's enough
So happy these past days
So loved
So warm
So true
So right
So full
Now the threat of darkness looms
An empty abyss ready to suck in all life
A hole waiting for me to fall
The only light is you
Your touch
Your smile
Your sparkle
Your heart
Your love
And now you stand there like a beacon
Trying to decide if we're worth the fight
Worth the effort
Worth the sacrifice
Worth the risk of gaining eternal happiness
I know that we are worth it
I am willing to risk it all
While I wait for you to make or break my world.
I can only pray that my love is enough
Copyright © May 2002 - Heather Cacciatori
Senses
In your eyes I see our love
Strong and secure.
In your touch I feel our love
Gentle and reassuring.
In your words I hear our love
Confident and lasting.
I know our love,
For it lives inside me.
Your eyes look through me,
Seeing all that was hidden.
Your touch, like no other
Whimpering to my body.
Your words touch my soul
Knowing that you love me
Copyright © May 2002 - Heather Cacciatori
Take My Hand
If I take your hand
will you walk with me
Through time and ages
into the rainbow of our life
I will give you love and laughter and teach you to feel the beauty
Of a single tear
or the petal on a flower
You will give me strength and understanding and compassion
And together our hearts will be one
If I take your hand
will you walk with me
And let me hold the deepest part of you in my soul
And the softest part of you in my heart
I will give you things and show you things
that no one else ever can
Because no one else can love you like I do
And no one else can feel
how complete my life is with you
When I take your hand.
Copyright © 2001 - Heather Cacciatori
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