Turning Tide

It's a churning sea,
A riptide of emotion,
Pushing one forward and
Pulling another back.
It's unknown what will be left on the shore
And what will be swept into the unforgiving tide.
Love? Regret? Passion? Temptation? Loneliness?

I sit and look at you, then wonder what
It is that's changed since yesterday.
Can I still give you all my tomorrows?
Is forever even long enough?
Further happiness may be around the next corner
But the loss may not be worth the risk.

Years have passed since we began building a life together.
The deep love has grown shallow,
The hot passion now a dull flame,
The tender touches a habit rather than a need.
Words are whispered to fill the silence
And a kiss is just something to do.
Is it possible for our love to have grown dormant,
Hiding in the soul waiting to be woken?
Has our love dried out, withering away
To leave only wonderment before moving on?

Are your eyes reflecting my inner turmoil,
Feeling lost in your own heart,
Or is your love for me still strong and without hesitation?
Leaving you, I cannot do,
For you have done nothing wrong
But everything right.
I cannot cause the pain, the uncertainty, the loss.

I sometimes wish you could,
Wish you would do one thing wrong,
Wish you would finally have enough,
Wish you would set yourself free.
A breath of relief...then wonderment
If that is really what I want after all.

It's not easy; nonetheless, I cannot do to you
What so many have done before.
I cannot see the hurt in your eyes,
The tears streaking your cheeks,
The frown of your mouth,
The break of your heart.

So I wait for the churning of the tide
To bring back to me what was lost in the sea.



Copyright © 2000 - Heather Cacciatori

Unrecognized Dreams

I want
...to fall in love with you again
...to enjoy the feel of your arms around me
...to absorb the warmth of your touch on my skin.

I close my eyes and wish I could melt into your kiss.
I long for my knees to go weak as passion for you floods my veins.
I want nothing more than to want you once more.

My heart cries out to need you near me.
My toes wish to curl with the feel of your lips.
My lungs wish to constrict with your soft caress.
My mouth wishes to moan your name from something other than mere habit.
My desire runs so deep into my soul that it tears at my heart,
When they don't become reality.

These recent desires go unnoticed by you
And your love is still strong as the oak we planted years ago
When our love was new.
There's nothing I want more than to go back in time
And hold those feelings tighter to me
In hopes they will not fade away.

I roll over and place my arm around you as you sleep
And the sigh that my soul releases is troubled,
As my heart breaks from unrecognized dreams.



Copyright © 2001 - Heather Cacciatori